Today's Lectionary Text
a time to weep and a time to laugh,
These past few years have been a rollercoaster of a ride for me and this verse puts it all into a simple sentence. If you have ever seen “Inside Out”, a look into my brain would be the emotion Joy controlling it and then Sadness accidentally touching the control panel and then things getting out of hand where Joy and Sadness are taken out of the picture and leaving Anger, Disgust, and Fear in charge.
At times I felt lost and out of control and I did not know where to go. I did not grow up going to church and never really had that foundation. When I left home to come to college. Fear was definitely in charge of my life. Later, in the fall semester, I did not really fit in with the college scene of drinking and partying and Sadness took control. I was lost and did not know what to do or who to go to then God put Aidan Johnson into my life. Aidan and I relate to a lot of different things and he made me realize that I would be ok, and he brought me to his floor to hang out with his friends. I finally felt that I fit in and Joy was back in charge. Among his friends there was Braden Reichenberger, but I did not meet him till the start of the spring semester.
I think that the reason God brought me Aidan was so I could meet Braden and so that Braden could bring me back to God. If you don’t know on Thursday nights there’s relevant, a worship service by college students for college students. When Braden asked me if I wanted to go to relevant with him, Fear took control, but so did Joy. I am usually a very talkative person but during relevant I was scared to talk, the reason that I was scared was because all the people around me know God and know the Bible.
The more and more that I continued going to relevant the more and more it became my safe space where I knew I would be able to go, and people would want me to be there. They wanted me to be there even though I did not know much about faith life. On Monday nights, Tuesday afternoons, Thursday nights, and Sunday mornings there is a group that I know wants me to be there.
With school being online for the rest of the semester Fear takes control. Where am I supposed to go? How do I not shy away from faith and not fall back into the place in my life I was in the fall semester of my freshman year? I don’t have the answers to these questions, but I know that whatever comes God will be there with me and guide me.
Emporia State Campus Ministry
Prayer for Reflection
Hey God, I ask that you please be with me in these upcoming weeks and to be with all those who are experiencing every emotion possible. Please guide us to where we are supposed to be. Remind us that you are with us and show us that you will not leave, even amidst the hardest times and the scariest of thoughts. Amen.
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